So lately I have been feeling so much pain, that I've just become numb to everything. I can't get mad, sad, happy, excited. I just don't feel anymore. I would really like to be genuinely happy for once in my life. The last time I can remember that I was genuinely happy was back in April. I got a special visit from someone that is near and dear to my heart. Just a text from him would make me instantly smile.
At the same time, I've been screwed over by so many guys that it's hard for me to trust any of them. I know I should be more open, but it's just difficult once you've put your heart out there and it gets stomped on time and time again. I'm more scared to have an actual relationship. I haven't been in a real boyfriend/girlfriend relationship in over 2 years. I'm not sure I'd even know how to be a girlfriend. I'm really independent, so it's more difficult for me to think of this other person 24/7. I just want someone that shares the same need for passion. I need to feel wanted, loved, appreciated. I'm not asking for a lot. But I am asking for a little time and understanding.
Xoxo Little Miss Who You Are
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