When I always give so much more....
I've always been one of those people that likes to give everything they have. I was taught to love and share. Sometimes I'm just too nice, or I hold on a tad too much. Is it so bad to want to be loved or have feelings/actions reciprocated? I'm the girl that will always be there for you in a jam. I'm the one that will sneak out of her house at 4am just to come get you. I'm the one that will put her feelings aside and help you out talking to another girl (that one is just because I'm stupid). I'm the one that will carve time out of my busy schedule just to see you, just to get stood up in the end. I'm the one that constantly thinks about you, just hoping that maybe I'm on your mind.
I think loyalty, trustworthiness, kindness are just a few traits that I look for in friends and guys. I consider myself a decent human being. I will be more than willing to help a person out. Lately I feel like I've been taken advantage of by several different people. I just want to be appreciated. I'm not saying that every time I do something good I get a gold medal or anything. It would just be nice to hear a simple thank you, or I love you, or you really mean a lot to me, every now and then. Cause one day I'm not going to be there. When I grow some balls, I won't be there every second, of every day just at your disposal. If I don't feel that you are reciprocating any effort into our relationship, there is a very good chance that I'll make a change. A change that excludes you from my life. I'm sick of taking less. I deserve more. Or at least I think I deserve more. I've had a difficult time with not feeling like enough. Not pretty enough. Not funny enough. Not smart enough. Not skinny enough. Not entertaining enough. I've just felt like I don't deserve to live a happily ever after life.
Xoxo Little Miss Who You Are
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