Kiss Tomorrow Goodbye

I'm pretty sure that sex is on girls minds, just as much (if not more) as it is on guys minds. Honestly, I think about it a lot. And it also tends to be the topic of many conversations between my friends and I. I believe that sex can just be sex, just an act between two people satisfying a carnal need. But at the same time, I believe that sex can be this beautiful scene between two people, so passionately in love with each other. I've had it both ways, and honestly the second way is the best way. I keep running back to my ex, for sex, to be wanted, to be needed, to just share what we both had at one time. I do still have feelings for him, but I've realized until we both are willing to accept how we feel about each other, and until we're both willing to make adjustments and sacrifices for each other, we will never work out. But the one thing we knew how to do was "make love." As corny as that sounds!! I've been listening to Luke Bryan a lot lately and there is this one song that fits my situation perfectly, "Kiss Tomorrow Goodbye". 

All we do right is make love
We both know now that ain’t enough
Ain’t gonna beg you to stay
Ain't gotta ask you what's wrong
Ain’t no reason running after something already gone
Take off your leavin' dress
Let’s do what we do best
I guess everybody’s got their way of moving on
Girl rest your head one more time in my bed
Love me like you loved me when you loved me
And you didn’t have to try
Let’s lay down tonight
And kiss tomorrow goodbye

 

We can't talk our feelings out, so we just act on how we feel. And we've been doing this for about 3 years now, but I'm not sure I can do it much longer. I can't be the only one showing my emotions, I can't be the only one trying to share some love. All a girl really wants is to be loved back, and that's the truth. Which is why I've gone to other people, trying to get some attention, trying to get a little love. But all I ended up with was a little lovin ;) Not that it was a horrible situation, just not exactly what I want. 

 

My sister keeps telling me that I need to open up and keep an open mind when it comes to guys. I need to take away all of my standards and expectations, cause that may be holding me back from someone that could be right in front of me. I understand this, but at the same time I'm too scared to open up and let myself be vulnerable to someone like that. I don't want to get hurt. I don't want to cry anymore. But I am trying...I'm trying to not be so closed off to people. I just think it all had to start with letting someone else go. You can't always get things to work out how you want them to. But that's the beauty of life, whenever something doesn't work out, life twists and turns and creates a whole new situation. One that may be better than you ever could've expected. So right now I'm just going to try to go with the flow and wait for my better ending. 

 

Xoxo Little Miss Who You Are