Do you ever have those people that seem to make a difference in your life? It could be good or bad. But for some reason, you want to keep the ones that keep hurting you? I've had a couple of these before, but none as hard to get away from than the one with my ex. I've grown strong throughout the past few years, so I can let go of someone if I can see that they are just using my relationship to their advantage, or just talking to me when it's convenient for them. For some reason, I just cannot let this boy go! We technically dated for about 3-4 months, but we've been doing this "dance" for the past 3 years. We will go months without talking and then all of a sudden I'll get a text from him because he was reminded of me. And then I'll text him randomly because I heard a song we used to like. It's mainly confusing because every time we leave each other (after hanging out), we leave it on very vague terms. Like we aren't together, but we can still talk to each other and do stuff together, it just won't be for awhile. I guess you could say that we've built a friendship, but does that really work? Can exes really be friends with each other afterward? But even some of the stuff that is sent back and forth, it's like flirty, not just any normal friend texting. I don't know, I guess this relationship just confuses me more than anything else. Sometimes I daydream about the past, or the could have been. But then I remember the reasons why he irritates me, and why we aren't together. It's a lose-lose thought process and I'm not sure why I do it. But I can't help it. I loved him dearly, and honestly I still care about him.
Xoxo Little Miss Who You Are
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