Little Miss I'll Take Less

When I always give so much more....

I've always been one of those people that likes to give everything they have. I was taught to love and share. Sometimes I'm just too nice, or I hold on a tad too much. Is it so bad to want to be loved or have feelings/actions reciprocated? I'm the girl that will always be there for you in a jam. I'm the one that will sneak out of her house at 4am just to come get you. I'm the one that will put her feelings aside and help you out talking to another girl (that one is just because I'm stupid). I'm the one that will carve time out of my busy schedule just to see you, just to get stood up in the end. I'm the one that constantly thinks about you, just hoping that maybe I'm on your mind.

I think loyalty, trustworthiness, kindness are just a few traits that I look for in friends and guys. I consider myself a decent human being. I will be more than willing to help a person out. Lately I feel like I've been taken advantage of by several different people. I just want to be appreciated. I'm not saying that every time I do something good I get a gold medal or anything. It would just be nice to hear a simple thank you, or I love you, or you really mean a lot to me, every now and then. Cause one day I'm not going to be there. When I grow some balls, I won't be there every second, of every day just at your disposal. If I don't feel that you are reciprocating any effort into our relationship, there is a very good chance that I'll make a change. A change that excludes you from my life. I'm sick of taking less. I deserve more. Or at least I think I deserve more. I've had a difficult time with not feeling like enough. Not pretty enough. Not funny enough. Not smart enough. Not skinny enough. Not entertaining enough. I've just felt like I don't deserve to live a happily ever after life.

Xoxo Little Miss Who You Are

Footprints On The Heart

Do you ever have those people that seem to make a difference in your life? It could be good or bad. But for some reason, you want to keep the ones that keep hurting you? I've had a couple of these before, but none as hard to get away from than the one with my ex. I've grown strong throughout the past few years, so I can let go of someone if I can see that they are just using my relationship to their advantage, or just talking to me when it's convenient for them. For some reason, I just cannot let this boy go! We technically dated for about 3-4 months, but we've been doing this "dance" for the past 3 years. We will go months without talking and then all of a sudden I'll get a text from him because he was reminded of me. And then I'll text him randomly because I heard a song we used to like. It's mainly confusing because every time we leave each other (after hanging out), we leave it on very vague terms. Like we aren't together, but we can still talk to each other and do stuff together, it just won't be for awhile. I guess you could say that we've built a friendship, but does that really work? Can exes really be friends with each other afterward? But even some of the stuff that is sent back and forth, it's like flirty, not just any normal friend texting. I don't know, I guess this relationship just confuses me more than anything else. Sometimes I daydream about the past, or the could have been. But then I remember the reasons why he irritates me, and why we aren't together. It's a lose-lose thought process and I'm not sure why I do it. But I can't help it. I loved him dearly, and honestly I still care about him.

Xoxo Little Miss Who You Are

DON'T TOUCH MY SHIT

So I have this thing where I don't like people touching or moving my stuff. Every single roommate that I've had, has done this. And EVERY SINGLE TIME it pisses me off! Seriously, is it really that bothersome that you have to literally move my shit ALL THE TIME!!!??? I don't do laundry all that often, so when I do, I have a lot. I had clothes in the dryer and in the washer, and I left for work for 3 hours and came home and both of my loads of laundry were in the dryer and dried. The problem with this is that the load I had in the washer was NOT supposed to go in the dryer!!!! Why? Why? WHY?! WTF. Who does this?! So just a warning: DON'T TOUCH MY SHIT!!!!! Or I will most likely flip the fuck out! Bitch.

Xoxo Little Miss Who You Are

Little Miss One Big Mess

I'm pretty sure most people can relate when I say that I have been one big hot mess before! Lately I've turned into a huge mess. I'm not sure what to do or how to handle it. This is also the year of the 21st birthdays, so I've been going out and getting pretty shitty at least once a weekend.

Last weekend was probably the worst. We had some friends over for a good time. Tried Jeremiah Weed Sweet Tea vodka for the first time. MY NEW FAVORITE DRINK! We also played Drunk Ball. It's a very tricky game, especially if you're the one that keeps winning. The goal of the game is to be the first team with your beers gone. This objective is not very favorable if you are the champion of drunk ball and have to work the next day!

So that leads off to the rest of my weekend. I worked 1-8 at Caribou on Saturday. It was absolutely horrible! I'm almost positive that I went into work still a little drunk. I had severely burnt my elbow the night before, and just kept burning my hands at work. Eventually I slammed my thumb into a cupboard and that is where I had had enough of that shitty day.  My shift supervisor, Nick, was being really nice. Helping me do thing, making processes easier. He checked on my thumb and at one point he awkwardly tried to comfort me by putting both of his arms on my shoulders (seeming to want to give me a hug, but not thinking that I'd be okay with it) and telling me that I'd be alright. And after I was all done counting down my drawer he came to check on me. He asked if I was going to be okay. It was really sweet, and I appreciated it very much! Although I nearly broke down into tears, but I just saved that for the car ride home instead. I'm not entirely sure how I ended up crying, but once I started, I couldn't get it to stop. I put in A Walk To Remember, so I'd have a legit reason to be crying. It didn't stop until like 2am. You could tell the next day, because my eyes were puffier than ever! Did a little retail therapy the next day to ease the pain.

So there you have it, I break down into one big mess for reasons I'm unaware of.

Xoxo Little Miss Who You Are

Little Miss Checkered Dress

I'm just going to use this one as an excuse to talk about my love/addiction to fashion!! Of course like any girl I have a love for clothes, makeup and SHOES!!! My weaknesses are dresses, shoes and Sephora. I will literally walk into Sephora for no reason and end up walking out with a purchase. I gravitate towards dresses of every kind, if I weren't so lazy, I'd wear them every single day!! I will also just go into DSW to just browse and see if they've gotten anything new in.

Lately I've gotten into the bad habit of buying (or at least window shopping) designer brands. Just this past Sunday I bought Vera Wang's "Lovestruck" perfume! Smells absolutely fabulous if y'all want to check it out! I went into the Puma store just to browse, but couldn't pass up the 30% off deal!!! And if my addiction to shoes wasn't clear before, I shall share my dream shoes with you.

Jimmy Choo's $1852.00

Soooooo sparkly!!!! If you could fall in love and marry an object, I'd marry these shoes! I also went into the new Vera Bradley store at MOA. Almost bought a lanyard, just so I could say that I owned Vera Bradley! THERE ARE SOOOOOO MANY DESIGNERS THAT I LOVE:

BETSEY JOHNSON

VERA WANG

PNINA TORNAI

ALEXANDER MCQUEEN

JIMMY CHOO

AND THE LIST GOES ON....

I'm a really big fan of bridal designers. If I could wear a wedding dress everyday I'd be so happy! All I want to do is be involved in the wedding industry! It'd make me ecstatic!! Although it's strange that I can't picture myself getting married. But I guess a few wise words from JLO would go "Those who don't wed, plan!" :) If you ever want to talk about weddings or designers, I'M THERE!!!

Xoxo Little Miss Who You Are